I want to have sex with my mom

I’ve always felt this intense pull towards my mom, ever since I hit my teens. We’re from a traditional desi family , where physical closeness is normal—hugs, sitting together during family time—but over the years, I’ve turned it into something more. I’ve normalized slapping her ass playfully here and there, like when she’s cooking in the kitchen or bending over to pick something up; she laughs it off as “beta being cheeky,” but I can see the slight flush on her cheeks. During our long hugs, especially after a tiring day, I let my hands wander a bit, caressing her ass softly under the pretense of comfort, feeling that soft curve that drives me wild. We snuggle and sleep together sometimes, her body pressed against mine in the shared bed, and I fight every urge not to cross that line.

It’s gotten to the point where I can’t hide it anymore—I want to fuck her so badly, to turn those innocent moments into something raw and forbidden. I’ve fantasized about confessing during one of our snuggling sessions, whispering in her ear while my hand caresses lower, seeing if she’d pull away or lean in. But the guilt hits hard; society would call it a sin. Still, the desire burns, and I wonder if anyone else in India feels this twisted love for their maa. Advice? Or am I alone in this