Spiralling again i just want this to stop

So i made a post yesterday about my pocd on here and asked if it couldve been actually pedophilia and now im just spiralling again something that scared me is that i saw a tiktok about how theres people who abuse minors for power and control and not because of actual attraction to children and then real pedophiles who are actually attracted to children but do not harm them https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSmy36w7h/

i dont know what to do im so scared this is me i get a groinal response/intrusive arousal whenever im just around a child i see one i hear one i hate it im a teenager btw i dont know why this is happening all so suddenly can pedophilia seriosuly develop out of the blue? I never experienced this before and i dont even have any desire to do anything to a child but im scared this means im experiencing attraction and that im a pedophile and even though pedos who dont hurt children arent bad people i dont WANT to be somebody like that i think im comfortably attracted to people my age i mean theres this girl i have started liking romantically recently we have been online bsfs for 2 years now and meeting irl soon but i dont know if this is genuine liking for her or just coping with the fact that im a pedophile and clinging onto the idea of her, ive always had crushes on people my age growing up and fantasised about people my age i dont know why this is happening and i want it stop the medication i take for ocd doeant realt help doesnt even help my depression either its fluvoxamine 50mg ive been taking the 25mg but started 50mg recently i guess ill have to wait and see and do therapy too but also question how do i even try erp here i wanna go back to before