Starting to spin

Hi everyone My husband and I have been waiting for placement for a year. We are older and it is starting to worry me. I am going to be 49 in March and he is 50. Any older parents out there? My husband has grown children. I don't have any. I have always wanted to be a mom and I thought I could push it aside. I was wrong. We entered into this process a bit later in life. It feels like our agency doesn't care too much about us until we are selected. Is that usual? We picked them because they have a solid track record of being ethical, taking good care of mommas, and following rules. I just have a hard time believing this is going to happen for us. I need some support I guess.