I’m stuck and don’t what what to do

Long story short I’m a married woman I met this married guy at a conference. Never had sex, but we felt the connection very quickly and kissed and has been in contact on and off for a while. We live in two different cities that are far away. Embarrassed to say but I feel madly in love with him. Charming, successful, kind, fun. He gets me the way my partner cannot, on top of that my partner and I have not had the best relationship and there’s trust issue from him lying to me before even he’s doing better now. Per him he feels the same way. We had to end things (I did) bc I can’t handle the jealousy and I was sad and he didn’t want me to suffer in order to be with him. He loves his wife deeply but he also loves me deeply but cannot give what I want due to he’s still happily married and have kids. He has never felt this way to anyone but me and I believe it. He tried to make me more secure by respecting my boundaries and get to know more about me instead of only being sexual. We love each other. And I miss him. I know I sound horrible here but I don’t see a universe I don’t love him. I’m sad not having him in my life, what can I do to get over him. I do want the best for him. So help me.