I need advice

Hi, this is my first ever post on reddit and I really need strong guidance. I am posting here to vent and seek guidance to the people who has been in the same instance as me and hopefully have the best, brutal, and ideal way to make me get through this tough time.

to tell you a bit of myself I am 22m, an undergraduate and currently working trying to make ends meet. We are a family of 6 and I’m the second born. Our family has been facing financial difficulties since the beginning of pandemic, and due to the difficulties of losing the family business I and the eldest sibling had to stop with our studies while our younger siblings study which I am happy for, our mother who tends to the young siblings, while my father works relentlessly to keep the boat from sinking and all that is left is me and my sister who also are employed to our relatives to at least make up for the lost time.

I am certain that I am at the lowest point of my life, made some wrong decisions that added up to my current situation and because of that I no longer enjoy and appreciate the things I used to. I became an empty shell of what I was and it has taken a toll on me. I have work but I am not earning much from the job I currently have, I don’t actually hate my job but due to the financial constraints and ends that don’t meet I feel unhappy.

I wanna live life like I used to, have fun, be myself and most importantly see my family happy.