So stressed I can’t even enjoy my pregnancy.

In September I found out I was pregnant at 4 weeks, I miscarried at 6. I believed everyone that told me cramping and spotting was normal and ended up devastated. Now I’m 17+3 and I literally spend every day terrified, I feel like I can’t trust my body. Every ligament pain my brain just jumps straight to the worst case scenario. I can’t even sleep, I can’t even sit without stimulus because I just spiral. I keep telling myself if I make it until 22 weeks I can breathe easier knowing the baby would have a chance at survival if they came early but that’s still over a month away. I’m just so scared and stressed that I can’t even bask in the joy of what my body is creating.