Im struggling with my sexuality.

I am 15 years old (M), ive been raised in a household that forcefully marries of their children, I have been noticing myself being attracted to the same gender a lot. (Attracted to both genders). I am scared my parents will shout at me if i tell this to them. I live in a very religious conservative family in kerala. Any suggestions? My mother treats being attracted to same gender as something very dirty and makes fun of them. This has been making me very stressed and I dont know what to do?