Mental Adjustment

I’ve had my machine since November and have figured out how to be as comfortable as possible while using it. My use is not great and that mostly due to mental resistance. I’m super aware of the machine all the time and I feel like it never really allows me to turn off. I’m angry that this has robbed me of my relaxation and that it really is the most effective and easy treatment. I know it works, I know I’ll keep adjusting, but I don’t know how to get passed the anger and sadness of losing my brain off time. Did anyone else go through this? What helped or changed?