Struggling with belief.

Does anybody have trouble with this? I really want God to be real. I watch so many different sides on YouTube. I’ve always struggled with my faith. I hear some good arguments for it and then I hear good arguments for it just being a fallacy. Not in a rude way but some of it just sounds so out of this world you know? I have a desire to look for God and the want to believe in him. I think that’s a good thing in the eyes of God if I had to assume? Any help would be appreciated. Thank you!