I got kicked out for being gay, trying to survive and support my family – need advice

I’m scared of being judged, but I really needed to talk to someone my age. I’m gay. I didn’t choose this. This is just who I am. When my family found out, everything changed. They told me I’m a shame, that I ruined their respect in society. My mom started hating me, my brother got angry and violent, and finally they told me to leave the house. That day still feels unreal. One day you have a home, the next day you’re nothing. I’m still a teenager and I feel like I grew up too fast. I feel numb most of the time. Sometimes I feel angry, sometimes I just feel empty. I still think about my mom and sister. Even after they kicked me out, I still feel like it’s my responsibility to take care of them someday. I don’t know why I feel this way, but I do. Right now I’m trying to survive. I want to work, I want to study, I want to become something in life. I know I have talent and potential, but I have no guidance, no support, no idea where to start. It feels like I’m at the lowest point of my life. I’m not writing this for pity. I just want advice from people my age. How do you restart your life from zero? How do I study and work when I have no support? How do I stop feeling like I’m broken? If anyone has any advice, even small suggestions, it would mean a lot to me. Thanks for reading.