Am i in love or just horny

I wanna start this post off by saying that i respect everyone in the lgbt community and i apologise in advance if this post comes off as homophobic in any sort of way.

Also very sorry for the looong ass story, idk the details to mention and the ones to not

Ever since my first gay experience which dates a few months back, i knew that i wasn’t straight, which kinda of made me question a lot of things. See i was the sort of guy that dated and hooked up with girls a LOT (this is not something im proud of) im pretty average looking with a moderately nice “physique”(at the time) and height, my penis size also kind of helped heat things up and keep the conversation going on whatever dating app i was on. I dated three wonderful girls during my 20s but unfortunately didn’t work out.

Came June 20th 2025 where i was at a friends bachelor party and came across this very very attractive guy (worth to mention that he is gay, this isn’t some straight to gay story haha) he fucking looked like Chris Evans the same exact hairstyle, beard, style, build…

See at the time i started kinda of exploring my sexuality, i started watching gay porn id find myself checking guys out at the beach, gym, sauna… and i loved and got turned on whenever a guy would hit on me or ask me out.

The party was great, had loads of fun (and lots of drinks) during the said party Chris Evans guy and i hit it off, we danced, did shots, played cards… until i decided to grab him by his arm lead him towards the bathroom and kiss the shit out of him, like full make out session like i have never kissed someone before. we took a cab home, had pretty good drunk sex and ended the night.

A few days later im on both grindr and the blowers hooking up with guys left and right (like 3-4 times a week) But never once have i felt romantically attracted to any of them.

But one day i hooked up with this guy but found myself texting him even after our night together, he was pretty fun to hang out with, im a not that talkative of a person so i mostly like listening to people talk and he always brings up some interesting topics, he’s very kind just kinda of perfect. Now the thought that i may be started to like him started crossing my mind, but the thing is i never imagined myself in a relationship with another guy ? and i don’t wanna initiate/ hint at wanting a relationship only to freak out or want out by the first month and be the world’s biggest asshole. Im pretty good at relationships i think, all the girls that i’ve dated before all say good things about me and vice versa and we never ended things on a bad note. I also wanna mention that i don’t even know if i want a relationship with him, i guess im feeling very confused because its my first time feeling this way for a person of the same sex so i don’t know what my feelings translate to, i guess moral of the story is i wanna figure out if my dick’s the one that keeps reaching out to him or my heart