Broken and cannot heal

I'm going to be honest I am going through an episode and I hate everything and I hate everybody and I hate my Psychosis and I hate myself and I hate the fact I am broken and cannot heal because the Universe is angry at me for not killing myself when I had the chance. I am unstable and dangerous. I need to stay away from Social Media until I calm down because I will only do stuff that I will regret and I will mourn the day after. I am sorry for not being a good friend or a good person, I am sorry for being broken and not being able to take care of myself and my own brain. I want friends but I cannot have them if I am in this state of delusion and hatred and pain and grief. I'm sorry I just need to pull myself together and I don't know how long it will take until I do. Bon voyage.