I hate my face in pictures

So I saw people doing this trend where they are posting their pictures from 2016. I don't have a single picture from that time period because how bad i look in pictures. like seeing myself in photos causes so much disgust in me it's crazy. i've almost always felt this. because of this trend i realized i don't have any pictures. i don't remember how i looked when i was 19. any time people are taking group pics, i try to get out of it. Once in a while if I am feeling good, i'll take a selfie and then immediately delete it. i am not good looking or whatever but when i see myself in mirror i feel, idk. ok? but the same face in photos make me cringe soo bad. it looks deformed almost. how is that possible even??

So much of life i never documented and i never really thought about it until recently. it sucks.