B.M.W.

Yesterday, you wrote that you need some space. To say i wasn’t hurt by this I would be lying. I could see the pain and sorrow in your words.

Normally I would lash out with anger and hatred. But I grew today. I didn’t sleep well all last night. I had to collect my thoughts, emotions, and empathy.

We have been through a-lot with each other over the past 5 years. The last 3 being the hardest for me.

Once I drifted off i was still enveloped in turmoil. I would normally fall back into my old habits and run to the pipe.

That wouldn’t have helped though it would have prolonged my anger and pain and dug me into a hole that i don’t know if i would have come back from.

But i regulated myself for the first time in a long time. Not for you but finally for myself.

It was an experience that i haven’t had to deal with in along time. Being able to slow myself down and not react but to choose a different path.

Thank you for being there for me the past couple of months. I will cherish that forever.

Now it’s my time to be there for you in the way you need. You asked for space. So, now I give that to you without any strings. So when or if you are ready to talk again I will be there for you.

So In The Mean Time And Between Times

Its All Love