I thought AP exams prepared me for college finals and I was so incredibly wrong

So I spent all of high school convincing myself that AP exams were basically the same thing as college finals, just slightly smaller. I even remember thinking "if I survived APUSH and AP Bio back to back junior year, I can handle anything." And honestly that confidence carried me through the first few months of college no problem. I walked into my first midterms feeling weirdly calm, took decent notes, showed up to review sessions, did fine. I genuinely thought I had figured out the system and that high school me had done all the hard work already.

Then finals season actually arrived and I want to formally apologize to every college student I ever internally judged for being dramatic about it. Because nothing, and I mean nothing, prepared me for the specific type of exhaustion where you sit down to study and your brain just opens a tab, stares at the material for four minutes, and then starts mentally replanning your entire bedroom layout instead. I have reread the same paragraph of my sociology textbook so many times that the words have stopped meaning anything. I know what they say. I just dont know what they mean anymore. Last night I made a very detailed color coded study schedule at 1am, felt extremely productive about it, and then went to sleep without actually studying anything. I woke up, looked at the schedule, and felt both impressed and deeply betrayed by myself. The AP version of me would have at least done the practice questions. College me aparently just makes plans as a coping mechanism and calls it a night. I have one exam in 36 hours and I am writing this instead of reviewing my notes, which I think says everything. If anyone has actually figured out how to make your brain cooperate during week 14 of a semester when it has clearly already emotionally graduated, please share. I am not above taking advice from strangers on the internet at this point.