Looking for support/need to vent

Hi - 25F

I found out I am pregnant a few days ago. Kind of figured I was after I was 5 days late on my period. I feel so alone. I will be terminating this pregnancy.

I told my two best friends from high school and one of them has been trying to get pregnant for the past 7-8 months so I felt bad for telling her. She was trying to cross check all of the things she’s been doing and what I did to end up pregnant and then told me she would be telling her husband. Kind of threw me off guard I was really shocked she said that. Now that I’ve had a few days to think about it I am really hurt that she would even think it was okay to share such a personal secret, I don’t care if it’s with her partner - that was not her business to tell. The other friend is making me very frustrated. After I told them together, this one said she almost started crying because she is pretty certain she had a chemical pregnancy a few months ago. Also heard her down the hall later that night talking to my roommate about how she’d have to think about having the baby if she were to get pregnant right now. I’m just annoyed. If you do not want a child, having a miscarriage and having an abortion are not the same thing/experience and it is pissing me off that she is even comparing the two.

Also why is this process so difficult. No clinics have openings for months. I have an ultrasound tomorrow to confirm the pregnancy. I was going to order pills off of abuzz but then was reading some things here and everyone is recommending a surgical abortion? Someone please help, I am so scared of being traumatized by either decision. I am worried about the mental toll the pills will cause and I am worried about the physical pain the surgical will cause. I know I have support and people in my corner, but nobody I know personally has gone thru this. I am so sad and scared.