Am I a pedophile or not

im a teen and I post here a lot but I can’t stop because the stress won’t. But I have overcome my last obsession of some random 6yr old girl who I innocently thought was pretty and not sexual at all and my ocd made it feel like it was attraction and sexual. But last night I was mid touching myself and while I was scrolling I saw some video of some like 1 to 2 yr old girl in a bikini and I had previously seen the video weeks before and got stressed and thought what if I was attracted and I ultimately didn’t feel attacted really at all. But when i saw it, it stressed me out bad and it felt like some sort of attraction or arousal but usually when I have ocd themes there is always some sort of truth to it that ocd grabs hold of like the fact that the other girl I had ocd about was pretty or whatever but now my ocd is obsession how the 1 to 2year old girls body looked in the bikini and I actually don’t know why it feels so real like when I ruminate and think about it, it feels like I’m attracted or sexually attracted to the thought and I despise it and I keep having groinal responses and it feels more real and real every time but I don’t know why and I just have no idea why my brain is making me feel attacted or sexually attracted I don’t know if it’s my ocd doing it but help me I don’t want to be a pedo