Update

So therapy didn't help me that much, but two other things did: securing another clinic appointment for next week as I wanted to tell them more about the other symptoms I'm getting along with tips that'll get me through the days before my actual appointment with adoctor in early March. Also decided to schedule a talk with a psychiatrist on my sky high mental health issues and see what medication to do.

Still feeling disgusted and ashamed in my position I'm in in my tinnitus/pulsatile tinnitus.