I feel so lonely

Almost all my life I have thought that being in a relationship is my solution to this loneliness that I feel, but now that I have matured more I see things differently. I believe that having a partner will not take away that loneliness that I feel or help me in anything. I think life is shit because no matter what I do, I always feel very lonely and empty, I can have many friends and I will feel empty, I can have 2 friends and I will feel empty, I can have no friends and I will feel the same. I am somewhat tired of this whole routine being repeated and with nothing being able to fill that void of my soul. When I feel this way, the first thing I think is that I want a partner, to be with someone, but the last times I have done this always ends badly. I no longer want to repeat this pattern, but I do not want to feel that way either.