New here and in tears already

New hear and in tears already

The Hi, I just joined. I am a HLM and my partner, yes you guessed it, is a LLF.

I am 61 and she is 66 but her libido has just fallen away over the last 5 years. Now we only have sex one or twice a year. I joined this group and started scrolling and the tears started flowing. I just dont know what to do. We have a very loving relationship but we are not good at talking.

I had had a varied past and have tried swinging (it ended my marriag) and i have had threesomes and dogging etc. i was happy to give that all up when i met my partner, the love of my life. When we have sex it is good and we both fantasise and pillow talk about MMF and FFM threesomes as a turn on.

I feel so frustrated and have turned to porn and masturbate twice a day. My porn/reddit scrolling have reawakened my bi-curious side.

I hope I don’t end up being unfaithful in that way.

Please help, I just don’t know where to start.