Advice :(

This is like my first time making a post on here, so Im a bit nervous and embarrassed to be rambling on the internet. But how does one cope with a low self esteem, I vent to my friends about not feeling pretty and they always reassure me that I am. But I don’t see it, it seems so hard to find myself attractive. And yes, looks aren’t everything but they definitely play a big role in your relationships. And also I feel even worse, being in high school and watching everyone else find someone interested in them and being in these long term relationships, while I can barely get a successful talking stage without them telling me that they just want to be friends :((

I don’t know what Im doing wrong, and Ive been trying to focus in myself and nit want external validation but its so hard to have to do everything alone yet watch everyone else get what they want