I was brainwashed a little too hard

Despite being the member of the church for only 2/3 months the amount of propoganda they put in me is crazy (EO church is true, demons are putting thoughts in my head) I even remembered a quote of John Chrysostom about the amount of food we should consume. But I want to tell you how exactly I remembered it all. In the beginning of the February I was unsuccessfully trying to combat my OCD and make myself feel any regret about the topic of my OCD and it was successful when I used religious argument and it helped so my brain (or i) subconsciously remembered it and one night I had another argument with my OCD thoughts and I was stressed. I immediately thought that it was demons attacking me based on the fact that prayer was making my heart warm and a was calmer and started to pray the Jesus prayer. It helped and so my brain made a pattern - prayer, religious thoughts = comfort. Now my brain tries to bring me back to church and makes pretty good arguments in defence of religion and also he conciders some thoughts as demonic. Also i don't leave my house and don't chatting to other people. All this makes deconstruction impossible.

One of the arguments of my brain (I think it's ocd or another mental illness) says that demons are really attacking me and influencing my thoughts and i need to pray and go back to church. Result of the night experience + old memories and propoganda my brain kept in the back of my mind.

I'm trying to come up with the proofs against coming back to church and that all these thoughts are mine, but my brain doesn't believe all these proofs (Because of the night experience 100% and lack of deconstruction). All this gets worse because of my dissociative amnesia and which makes me forgetting all my proofs and the stuff I was thinking about.

Also I fear that demons are always around me. I think I will not be able to escape this spiritual war thing until I will visit a psychiatrist.

Also I would like to talk or make friends with other ex members of Russian Orthodox Church (Atheists only)

!No Christian stuff please!