advice needed about confidence in acting witj birth defect please!

okay i’m gonna try keep this short. i’m 15F (16 in april) and i was born with a cleft lip and palate, which is a birth defect and basically means i have a deviated septum, and a scar on my lip. my speech can also sound nasal. (if u want more info on that, google it and it should come up!)

i have always felt that i could be of some use in this industry. and that sounds weird to say but, wjth having something that makes me different i want to put myself out there, and make that difference but, my circumstances are stopping me. i’m not particulary pretty bc i have a deviated septum as mentioned, a scar going from my lip to my nose,(makimg it look even more wonky than it is already) and my teeth arent straight, and have some gaps, but i have braces so it’s all good. i recently asked my friend to take some photos of me for modelling, but then realised how awful i looked, and it hit me reallt that my confidence levels reallt aren’t there. but this is sometbing that i feel i want to (and as stupid as it sounds, need to) do.

i domt do drama and havent since year 9 (uk) but did do a titanic monologue in year 8, and got a silver badge (bronze and silver were for year 7,8 and 9, gold and platinum for year 10 and 11) but even tho it’s only year 8, i skipped my bronze badge completely and went to silver, even before my crazy talented friend who can fucking act let me tell you!! maybe i should take acting classes? but then i don’t wnat to do theatre acting, i don’t like that, i’d love to do screen acting, like films and tv shows, but then again, i worry i’ll see myself and freak out.

lastly, my friend has written a short film, and wjats me to be in it, next year, but i’m worried that even when i have a septorhinoplasty, and my teeth are straight i’ll still feel crap about myself and not be able to do it. ibe been to physcology and counselling and it has helped massively, but recently i tjink om top of this, i feel om running oit of time. it sounds fuckinf stupid, and i know i’m only hust starting my life but i just feel pressure and i know i want to do this. i was wondering if anyone had any advice on what to do please?

(note: i tbink i may have hyperphantasia, bc i can vividly imagine interviews and stuff like that in my head of what it would be like after my friend shoots her film, which i know sounds sooo stupid but it’s true).

thanks for reading!!