AITAH for breaking up with my boyfriend?

Hi im 20 f and my ex boyf is 20 M we’ve been together for Four years we’ve gone through ups and downs together almost 7 months ago a big thing happened bw us and to be very honest it was his fault for context he broke up with me because some people said some things to him about me which wasn’t even true and he knows that but he chose to trust those strangers instead of me so yes it was a big deal for me and i made a big deal out of it obviously i was depressed for months cuz of that i stopped feeling anything i was numb for months cuz of that and during those 7 months he reassured me he has changed one more context is that is in the past whenever i was happy he has ruined the moment for me by picking of a fight with me for no reason and he has accepted it that he has done this because he was “jealous”

So for the last 7 months he has been having panic attacks and for like multiple hours at multiple times a month and it was happening whenever i was confronting him for something he has done for context i have been having panic attacks since 2022 and it was bad i have suffered from that and i have told him that and when he started having those he completely imitated my mechanism of that and everytime i was confronting him it happened FOR MONTHS i have blamed myself for it MONTHS

So a day before tomorrow we were having a fight and after all of that was sorted he confessed that he had never had panic attacks EVER he faked it just to get my attention and its not like that he didn’t had my attention he did i was fully devoted to him i have never ignored him at tough times because i know he is “emotional” an now after confessing this i cant ever see him the same i have given him way too chances i still do love him but i cant do this anymore Aitah for doing this?