Assaulted by my own father

I never felt valid enough. I never knew it was wrong until a few years ago, when my father moved out.

My father would wake me up every day for school. He would never do it normally (just shaking me or telling me to wake up) he’d smack my ass repeatedly, almost every. single. Day. He has done it since I was a small child, so I never questioned it. I knew he did it to my sisters too, because my sister told my mom and she told him to stop it, but he didn’t stop with me. Because I didn’t see a problem with it. I thought it was completely normal.

Now it’s been a few years since I’ve seen him, but I still think about it from time to time. I was never sure if it was sexual assault, because I never said no, and I never knew it was weird. I’m still unsure if my story is even valid, but I’m gonna share it anyway.

Maybe someone relates and doesn’t feel alone.