I am an unfit therapist due to my struggles as an AuDHD person.

Have been a LCMHC-A for 2 years. Almost full licensure. I don’t have the common sense other therapists seem to have when talking about clients and therapeutic decisions.

I don’t have the same kind of empathy that makes me overextend myself for them or cry after sessions. But I do have the kind that motivates me to want to keep meeting on telehealth with a client while knowing they’re over state lines because they’re in a desolate situation with nobody in their lives who supports them.

I was placed mostly with kids and some adults. With kids, I don’t communicate with parents enough due to therapy being school based and my issues with what to communicate to them, as well as the energy and effort it takes just to initiate a call. I am not good at forming relationships with staff at school. I think all this is a result of all I have to coordinate (school, office, telehealth meetings and phone calls and notes and other paperwork), where my ADHD symptoms of executive dysfunction and issues with task prioritization kick in combined with my autism related social issues—the energy it takes to engage in interactions, often having to think ahead on exact words because I have trouble communicating my thoughts on the first try without it coming out jumbled or totally off.

I don’t think this is imposter syndrome. I don’t think this field is for me.

But god do I have so much debt and loan forgiveness is the only option for help I have. But it would mean staying in the field for many more years.