I feel a lot happier

Last year, I cried to my therapist about how I was falling back into a depressive state and that I had undone all the mental work to get where I was. She gave me a referral to see a psychiatrist for an ADHD/Autism evaluation (this was something we had talked about in the past, but I didn't think much of it). I did not want to go; I thought it was ridiculous to think I had any kind of mental disability and that it was just something I could fix with medication.

Finally, after a gentle push from my therapist, I made the appointment. I thought nothing would come out of it and that it was just a waste of time and money.

Fast forward to today: I am feeling a lot better. I still have thoughts of denial, and I am working through this new diagnosis with my therapist.

I feel more authentic? More unapologetically me.

I feel a lot better knowing I'm not going through this alone and that there was, and is, an actual answer to my problem.

(Also, I don't know why I find crying in front of my therapist so embarrassing, lol.)