Shoes success have any meaning if you can't share?

I don't have any near & dear ones. I am happy in general & stay alone far from the place I was born. Today, I got a crazy & unexpected promotion. As if all stars aligned on my favour. I was asked to keep it secret till formal announcement on Monday. Beyond responsibilty, the financial gain I'm getting is substantial. I came back home at 5 pm. I slept since then & woke up just now slightly depressed. I don't have anyone to share anything. When I last dated, the girl left me because I couldn't give her time. I was building future, perhaps I have it now, finally, when I have no one else there to cherish it with. On Monday, I know I'll enjoy. I might get all those congratulations. But, I never realised I'm living this lonely. I don't feel desperate or anything - it just feels strange.