So fucking frustrated with my parents' ignorance about this field.

My parents do not understand the lack of job situation in India. They think I'm stupid and exaggerating when I speak about this. They say even a clinic in the corner will have sooo many patients. Everyone needs doctors.

My parents and rest all relatives forced me into taking MBBS when I wanted to be an engineer coz I loved coding. They even made me take a seat in private college where I had the most miserable time and now I have an education loan on my head (which is actually what didn't allow me to unalive myself during my darkest period lol)

I want to move abroad to atleast try at a chance of having happiness but my parents don't support me. My mother talks all patriotic nonsense and my dad says India is best for doctors and keeps giving me example of some old doctors we visit who make lakhs and lakhs per month.

I hate this because my biggest dreams in life have always been experiencing life, travel, hobbies, etc since childhood but they pushed me into this career where now even if I tried my hardest it is impossible to move abroad.

Now they are saying you don't even want to go abroad you just want it coz ur cousins went. Which isn't true, but even if it was it would be totally justified coz I am seen as the loser now.

I keep thinking about the road not taken, I wish younger me wasn't such a straight laced studious parent obeying kid who let everyone peer pressure me into MBBS. I wish I had scored badly in school, then nobody would have told me you are so bright you should become a doctor.

I could have been an engineer and moved abroad or even if I didn't, get a job and work 9 - 5 and just LIVE the rest of the time.

Thank you for coming to my rant.