How did you all stop ?

Hello, I could use some encouragement. I’ve been a chronic relapser for years and have tried stopping drinking for over ten years. It’s just sad at this point. I’ve gotten better in the fact that I drink less per “session” and I don’t do multiple day benders anymore. I can also get longer stretches of sober days in a row, so I guess that’s some progress, but I want to stop completely and I can’t seem to.

I struggle the most with the boredom. Yes I know I can “make my life fulfilling” but that’s almost impossible as I’m a stay at home parent and I tend to drink at night when things have quieted down. I struggle with anxiety and my mind is always running. Alcohol seems to calm my mind quite a bit.

Anyway, please give me some tips, or encouragement? I’m tired of this cycle, the hangovers, etc