The 'Routine' (Good-Morning!!!) [AKA: sorry; but that was incorrect, thanks for playing....]

For the last week...

It's been nothing but escaping responsibility;

And running away...

Killing the pain and hurt;

From our past and our mistakes...

Resetting the morning routine.

Giving it a chance to reset...

Shroom retreat in Oregon.

Road trip down the 101...

Talking things over in Angel Falls;

Taking the boy out for some fishing...

Practicing some campfire cooking to prepare for upcoming travels..

Getting the fidelity accounts switched over...

Celebrating with good food and drinks and company and enjoyment...

Getting back into being comfortable;

After everything getting shaken up...

Driving and striving for peace, wellness, and happiness;

Sometimes that requires shutting down.

Sometimes systems require a reboot;

Sometimes it takes time;

Sometimes it takes multiple tries;

We went bowling and upgraded her wedding ring yesterday;

And there will be many more upgrades to her jewelry;

Acrossed many seasons...

Building value...

I did the thing I never did with any of you;

I committed;

I fought for it;

I earned it;

I was and am really willing to die for it...

Things none of you were even ready or willing or deserving of yourselves ...

I'm sorry;

I just don't have that commitment to any of you anymore, or love for that matter...

That all belongs to her;

I belong to her;

We got married in Vegas;

[It's official];

People have already tried to get us divorced;

(Didn't work)

She knows everything about all, if not most of you ;)

And I was honest about myself too...

(Imagine that, 10-20yrs later, I'm different)

We work through obstacles and troubles as a team;

We are an effective team ...

[Nothing is entirely anyone's fault here...]

We don't operate through fear and control here...

But I can still run the switch....

If you catch my drift...

Over here we don't hold onto pain;

We let it go:

The only person you're hurting;

Is yourself;

Because you ignore that you're hurting;

While continually trying to hurt others as well as yourself...

I had to see how ugly things were;

[And how ugly I was],

To change....

I didn't waste all my time blaming others ...

But I will still hold those individuals accountable for who they were when I wanted to change and get better around them and the fact they wouldn't let me...

I'm nobody's kicking post, or whipping boy...

She loves me;

She sees me;

She doesn't want that for anyone;

She doesn't has some sick place in her mind,

Where the abuses and counter abuses are justified;

Her mind doesn't run that course;

Despite what has been done to her;

She doesn't lean into becoming a vindictive, lying, cheating, abusive, opportunistic whore that damages men for fun/ego;

She leans toward the light;

Even when it's hard;

Even after the bad things, mistakes, or damage she causes;

She is there not just for rupture;

But also for repair;

She has done the individual work as a single person;

Now we are open to doing the work as a couple;

We have actually been in couples therapy since we met, through until we got married.

And we're going back soon.

Not to triangulate;

Not to gang up on the other one;

But to have better tools;

For our lives and each other ...

The type of shit idiots like you won't ever actually understand...

Even if someone handed you the tool;

Somehow in your hands it becomes either a weapon...

Or a sex toy...

Pathetic.

So yeah ... We are going to continue future- building, healing, being loving, kinder and actual adulting over here...

Feel free to continue rolling in your filth-fucking party over there;

Ta-Ta!

-The Fox in the Henhouse

-[AKA: The one who gets away]