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Do I have PTSD

Advice Needed: Mental Health

Lets get right to the point. I had a shitty upbringing mainly from my father who was a hard alcoholic, I was only hit once when he kinda chocked me a bit. Other than that never put his hands on me. However, when I was in a fight with him I ended up saying this is why I wanted to bleep myself (this is facts and I had planned how) the next day he toke me to the seattle children's hospital. Here's the hard part. I was taken in bright and early and he told them why I was there. Normal things happend as you would expect but one thing stuck. It was this diagram of tracking emotions and levels of anger which had reminded me of this story mountain I had received in school. This visit definitely traumatized me, however, once I got back to school (it was a friday and I had to skip) couple weeks later we got assigned a story mountain project the one that resembles the chart from my visit. I immediately sprung into a heavy panic attack I was panting on the verge of crying and couldn't think straight (I couldn't cry because it was during school and I wont allow myself to cry in front of others from more issues with my dad) and ever since every time I see that mountain or something similar I break into a panic attack. Ive had nightmares of this visit which has triggered insomnia in some cases. Thanks.

Posted Feb 21, 2026, 5:23 PM UTC

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