After all this time it happened to me too, “THE ACCIDENT”

I know there are many posts like this.

I’ve bottomed many times before and it has never happened to me before and I was so scared of something like this happening.

This muscular guy texted me (I’m a bear so it’s unusual being liked by someone muscular). I’m not really into sex but I decided to give it a shot. Came to his place, asked if I can use a shower and started cleaning myself. I ALWAYS use a shower hose, and so far it worked perfectly. I’ve been seeing many people advising not to put water too far so you wouldn’t have to clean parts you don’t need to clean. So I did it with a small water pressure. Put inside, keep water running in there for 5-6 seconds, shake/move body, let it go. Repeat until the water is clean. After the water is clean I always still double or triple check just to make sure.

So we started, breathed poppers in, super horny, in 20 min he starts penetrating and says “it’s dirty”, goes to the bathroom, I ask “If you want to I can clean some more”, he says yes and I go clean some more, with the same pressure and same tactics, the water was still CLEAN. I spent 20 more minutes cleaning something that seemed was already clean, I come out and he’s already fully dressed and says “I have stuff to do in 20 min”, basically telling me I need to go.

Obviously I didn’t believe him, texted him on Grindr and never got a reply.

I’m 26 and it never happened in my life before, was it because the water pressure wasn’t strong enough so I didn’t clean the further parts? I don’t want water to go too far and spend hours cleaning something I don’t need. I was incredibly embarrassed and the entire day I felt like crying.

Makes me not want to have sex ever again. I’m honestly traumatised by what happened.

I know people will advice me to NOT use a shower hose, but for me it’s comfortable and reliable (or at least WAS)