Student looking to become better with a porn and femdom past...

Hello !

I am Blake an 18 years old student.

I began warching porn at the age of 15, I already knew that it was bad for me. Indeed, I usually watched videos and stayed on my phone in my bed, before sleeping, and I stopped after cumming. I was like this 3 or 4 times a week.

Then, I discovered FemDom and mistresses. Porn was not as good as femdom videos. The fact to be told what to do with fetish or JOI video was incredible. I discovered new fetishes, new mistresses with their JOI and other videos. I followed their instructions and came a lot of time like this... It was not sufficient, it was not real, it only pleased me but not a real women. This is why I wanted to find a Mistress, someone to make me discover femdom, to guide me by making me quit porn to become a better student. I wanted this relation to help me become a better person. Thus, I created a discord and a reddit account, joined Discord and groups, posted some introductions and looked for dominant women.

Unfortunately, a lot of them ask for money (Findom) or scam (some are fakes). I was lost... I take a week to post introductions, try to send some messages, get to know people... but I haven't found yet...

I had some interactions with dominant women : they want to see my face but I am quite affraid to do this... I don't know if they are scammers or not... I am not comfortable doing this. Furthermore, it is quite difficult and weird to send a picture of your face online, potentially involving nudity to someone you duscovered 1 day ago.... For example, I was ask to film me edging once showing my full body with my face... I explained that I was not comfortable to show my face but the personn answered that it will not work if I can't do as asked...

I would love to become a better student. I am in holidays now and I have lost a lot of time looking for a domme and lurking on reddit...

I have read, walked, watched some good movies or videos. I would love to discover life but I have an issue with porn and this search of domme....

If you have any questions, suggestions, informations, advice... I would be pleased to answer them ! Thank you for reading this.