How to stop shutting down when things get hard?

I’m trying so hard to figure what career I want in life. I just sit in front of my computer and I have this overwhelming anxiety and fear about my future. I apply to jobs but I can’t find another one. I don’t even know what industry I want to go in.

I’m seriously thinking of hiring someone to slowly coach me through this all. Through applying to college, and finding a career that’s suitable for me. If that’s even a job. I just need help like I need hands on help.

Whenever people yell at me, or give me “tough love” or “real advice” I shut down and get depressed about my situation all over again. I don’t know what I want to do and nothing interests me. It’s so hard to believe in myself like me genuinely so had that it’s starting to feel like a disability. I can’t do anything. All I did was clean my room last night but I was supposed to apply to more jobs and I just couldn’t. I was in my bed sad and tired after work.

I’m just so afraid for my future. I feel completely and utterly hopeless.