You’re not who I thought you were

You constantly lie…even about the smallest things. So how do I trust a damn thing out of your mouth now? I'm such an idiot or at least you seem to think so I quess. I've been so depressed and down on myself knowing SOMETHING has been off with you for a while now. Thinking there's something wrong with ME, I'm lacking, not enough, unattractive and maybe you're just not interested in me anymore. I've done my best to suck it up and tried to hide how low it's made me feel just so I can be your positive. I don't think you'll ever be truly honest with me or love me the way I love you. That hurts the fuckin most. I feel like I'll never be good enough in your eyes no matter what I do. Damn my heart hurts. You really aren't who I thought you were all these years. You're a stranger