I think a deity is trying to contact me or at the bare minimum help guide me.

I’m hoping this doesn’t sound silly or dramatic, but I feel so strange and I have for a while so I’m hoping to get some advice/help.

Let’s start from the beginning.

For the last 24 years of my life, every path I took has been stopped, no matter how badly I wanted it. And everything always went wrong. But the worst of it happened in the last 3 years.

At the time I was living with my ex. I wanted so badly for that to work, and while I was with him, I tried to advance my career and nothing worked. Everytime I made the jump, something happened. My car broke down, I got injured, my cat got sick, or my ex got injured or sick or something. Something always happened ripping whatever opportunity I had right from my grasp. I didn’t think anything of it really. I thought that was just life. Things happen.

However, this relationship wasn’t perfect. we weren’t happy. When I broke things off and moved out, things changed and far too fast for it to be normal.

My cat almost never had issues with his FHS anymore, my car which couldn’t stop having problems suddenly stopped breaking down every other week, and the foot injury I had gotten that the doctor said I’d have nerve damage in suddenly stopped hurting. I haven’t had a flare up in that foot since I moved out of his place.

Now I know these sound like little coincides. So let’s get to some other weird things.

I work out a lot cause I wanna be a firefighter and I was set to start an academy in the old town I lived in with my ex. When I moved, I moved too far to start that academy and felt like I was starting all over again.

At the new gym I went to, a few people introduced themselves to me to be friendly on a whim. A pure, total whim, and on a day they usually don’t come to the gym (and a day I usually don’t go either. But I had the day off for a doctor appointment so I thought I’d kill some time.), and it turns out they are friends with a local fire chief. They set me up with a meeting, and now in 3 months I start a program with them to get my emt certifications and then I’ll be ready for the academy with their fire house.

(Im trying not to say too much about the FF cause I don’t wanna jinx anything. I’m so excited for it :) )

So cool, I have this opportunity now. My next step was figuring out how to afford it.

Over the winter I got myself a seasonal job on top of my fulltime gig and I loved it. Hours were great, work was steady, cool. But they didn’t end up keeping me. Not enough hours to keep every seasonal. Well, about 2 weeks after talking to this fire chief, the old job called me and offered me a permanent position back with enough money for me to afford my EMT program.

Amazing! Great! But then I got hit with the realization that I need my cars stickers and stuff renewed.

A few days later, I get a call for a side gig offer to help run an event on st Patrick’s day with some of my friends and make enough money to cover the costs for my cars stuff.

The point is, over and over, every single time a road block hits, something clears it without me really lifting a finger. And I get this looming feeling of someone watching me. Of something guiding me and telling me THIS WAY!!! THIS IS IT!! GO GO GO!!! And I just keep going, but I want to know what or who is helping or guiding me if there is someone or something out there.

I hope I don’t sound out of my mind. But seriously, I feel like a deity or something has been guiding me.