I want to get married but I am struggling to balance being a sole carer for my mom, having my own health issues and having a wife

I am really not sure what to do or how to approach the situation and I am only getting older, but one thing that I am certain of is that I do not want to die alone La samaha Allah

I am also quite upset about my own health as I write this post because it can be hard to deal with mentally and emotionally and without complaining, it can feel like my health would also require me to somewhat dependent on another person at times. It’s a difficult feeling.

I don’t want to burden anyone, I don’t want to neglect anyone’s rights (time attention care etc).

Caring for the elderly makes me sad. It’s sad because I can see them ageing slowly with time, and it kills me inside. I never ever let them feel it or sense it. But it hurts me.

Idk and then I start to look at myself and where I am, I don’t want to be alone, I want a partner, who would support me no matter what, through thick and thin etc. I hope she can understand that I have my own health problems which mean I can or can’t do certain things and may or may not need some help at times - I am limited (even though I’ll never admit it and never would like to hear it). Id be willing to go above and beyond for her too.

Idk in the back of my mind, I know that I won’t be able to give her 100% as being a carer requires a lot, and this is where I get confused about what I should do.

Idk what this post is, I’m quite sad as you can tell. I’ve never told my concerns to anyone, only you strangers on Reddit. And ofc only Allah SWT truly knows.

Look after your family people, life is short wallah. May Allah forgive us and have mercy upon us all. And may He grant us all the highest rank in Jannah