Im (21F) starting to hate my bf (22M)

Long story short, we’ve been together for 2 months ish? He (22M) pursued me (21F) for around 4 months and eventually we kissed at a bar and i felt like he was a really really nice guy with good values, so i decided to give it a shot.

Before the relationship even started, he gave me so many PSAs, he told me that he’s selfish, and very calculative in a sense that he plots everything and does everything for the sake of himself and himself only. I mean fair enough, we’re both law students that have so many commitments and future ahead of us, so i dont blame him for that

But lmao i feel like it really backfired on us. First of all he’s one year older than me, and he’s an overachiever in school, so his image on my mind was actually a really respectable and smart person, and maybe thats why i can understand and sort of accept this ‘selfish’ persona of him. But the main reason why i still followed through is because i didnt really see him as someone selfish, throughout the months he pursued me he was caring, thoughtful and kind, so i really thought the persona that he told me about was just a protection of his true, kind and soft self (yeah call me delulu lol)

From another perspective, I came out from a very traumatising past relationship a few months ago, and also i didnt have the best relationship with my family, so in result I feel like i am somebody that needs alot of reassurance (like ALOT) and ive also been very transparent to him about this

When we got together, i noticed he would always tell me about how much his friends tell him that he deserves better, and i would feel really off, cuz actaully we kinda share the same friend group (we’re in a club together). He would told me how his friends would call me a red flag and how he will always defend me. i mean i feel like im not stupid la and i called him out on this and he said he just wanted to be transparent and honest with me so the solution was just he wont tell me anything that his friends say anymore

Another thing is that he’s somebody that reallyyyy loves to make implied remarks (which i absolutely despise). For context i am very straightforward with my feelings, and he’s somebody thats really good with his words (i mean hes a champion mooter). I hate playing games and guessing mainly because of the experiences i had with my past relationship and also my family. so like whenever i get a slight hint that hes trying to invoke some kind of reaction by dropping some snarky remarks, i get so pissed and i’ll lash out. and it would always end up with him apologising and telling me that hurting me wasnt his intention at all

ok there was one case where i posted a video of myself singing a song that i found really cute. and also because i knew he would love that song. and them he replied me and told me that thats the song that he listened to alot when he was with his ex situationship and he even posted her to this song

i mean bro when he said this i exploded, but he explained to me that he just wanted to ragebait me and fuck with me, and i ended up accepting that explanation and proceeded with the relationship

in general it really pisses me off when he makes remarks like this, it makes me wonder whether this dude is a sincere and genuine person or not. and i feel like these really is thinning out the trust i had for him. nowadays whenever he does something or say something ill always think man what is this dude trying to achieve. and i get pissed very easily because i personally CANNOT stand petty and insincere people. And the problem is it shows, it is very evident that i lost trust in him. We had so many fights over this and the conclusion is always just okay so i really dont trust him anymore, and both of us would be heartbroken but we’ll still carry on the next day

Ive had second thoughts about this, but im really in a dilemma on whether should i give him this trust, or should i believe in my own gut feeling that this guy is not for me

tl;dr: should i give my bf the trust even though my gut feeling is telling me no