Vent, but if there is a label that fits me, please tell me... I got bullied for being to straight to be lesbian, and too lesbian to be bisexual...

CW: Mild content warning for talk about genitalia, nothing serious.

I don't feel like I belong anywhere in the queer community. I'm too straight to be a lesbian, but too lesbian to be bisexual. I've tried talking to both groups and they both shunned me for not fitting the label perfectly. Because of this, I don't know what label I am. I want a label because I want a flag that represents me, and something I can show around for having pride in myself and who I am, but I don't have a flag because I don't have a label because nothing fits me…

I like all genders, it doesn't really matter to me, women excite me the most, and I'd never date a man IRL, despite liking all genders and being gender blind I have a preference and won't date a specific gender.

I don't like men, penises, and masculinity. But butches and tomboys are okay despite their masculinity because they are still women and have woman genitalia. I don't like anything associated with men. Femboys are not okay despite their femininity because they are still men. But I daydream about being with a man all the time, but I'd never in a million years date a man IRL. Men are completely off the table for me in real life, but are highly desired in my daydreams.

I want a pre-existing label.

I don't think bi or pan fit me.

Women are just amazing. They get me really giddy and happy and blushing. Women are perfect. They make me super happy and I want to hold hands and kiss them. My heart yearns for women to date. I yearn for a woman so hard it physically hurts me sometimes.

I've never had romantic feelings for men in real life. I've tried dating and my love was just not there. I was highly uncomfortable no matter how many men I've dated. I just couldn't find my love for them. It just made me HIGHLY uncomfortable. And in present times, THINKING about dating a man makes me PHYSICALLY RECOIL IN DISGUST. It's just not what I want.

But I daydream about men all the time. Which is why I'm so confused.

I can't be a lesbian because I still find men attractive, I just never want to be physically or emotionally intimate with them, like, ever. I want to keep my fantasies in my head.

My daydreams are in a 3rd person view through a self-insert OC. it's not me, but a character that represents me. I live my fantasies through her. So she does and feels what I do and feel. But we are separate people.

When I picture myself in the future, I see myself with a woman, or otherwise fem-presenting person.

But I'm not a lesbian… right? I still find men attractive, even if they are fictional, men are men regardless (or that's what r/actuallesbians told me and bullied me about).

I don't think I could fall in love with a man. I DO NOT want to touch a man, let alone cuddle. I do not want to touch skin (for sensory issues, I just HATE how rough their skin is), so 0 holding hands. I don't want to talk to them unless I have to in a romantic way. I don't want to share my life with a man I don't love.

My mind only gets excited over fantasy men. Because they are fictional dolls I get to 100% control. They are dolls to me, meant to fulfill a simple fictional desire.

But I can't be lesbian because I got bullied in r/actuallesbians for still finding men attractive. So they bullied me and said I wasn't a lesbian and was a closeted bisexual. Which I'm not! I never want to spend my life with someone man-presenting or someone who has a penis.

On the Kinsey Scale, I rank 5 out of 6, which is: "homosexual with incidental heterosexual tendencies".

I'm so confused as to what I am… please tell me… don't sugar coat it. Just tell me…