Not-self from the perspective of a 6/2 pure MG

My particular case.

I have realized ever since I got deeper into HD, that the reason I feel frustrated is because I have been living as not-self according to my strategy and authority, which I think in my case has shown up as being confused and scattered about my purpose, and couldn't be as decisive as others around me. (Doesn't help that most of my variables are left, with the exception of Blending Caves)

I am not sure if I am also very much Manifestor-like, since I also have my ego center defined, and my cross is literally the left cross of informing 1, so I am not sure if I am supposed to inform as well.

What do you think?