More than 10 years ago, an aspect of my personality began to develop. Over time, I began to feel physical parts that my human body does not have.

He only shows when I am in a romantic relationship where I feel safe in this regard, or with people who are experiencing something similar, or when I am alone. 

I'm F29. He is neither human nor animal, although his personality is similar to a fox. His skin is blue, he doesn't speak, and his hands are different. Sometimes he can say a few words or make sounds to communicate, as he learned by listening me, and he uses the hands of this body when it is very necessary. When I am him, I really struggle to speak if necessary, and walking without climbing or jumping feels too artificial.

I feel that he is the purest aspect of my being, the most vulnerable and at the same time the strongest.

It is worth noting that blue is not my favourite colour, that I did not seek out his form or try to make him look like something I would like.

At the same time, he only appears in certain contexts and, in fact I can suppress him if necessary (although it hurts).

I don't know if it's just the way my brain gave space to my inner child, allowing me to connect with her in this way, or if it's (also) something else.

I hope I haven't made this post too long for this community, and I appreciate your opinions and comments. I'm leaving an image of him that doesn't represent him 100% but comes close and he likes it.

Am i Otherkin or something?