I hate myself even though I have everything.

I hate myself for the reason that I am good at everything. Since I have been a kid I have excelled in everything I have done. I won states in highschool as the mvp in both football and soccer. I have hit the top rank in R6, League of Legends, and Faceit Level 10 back on CSGO. I am 6’2 and good looking, I am able to talk to anyone and make friends with everyone. I had straight A’s in highschool while taking AP classes and I never had to study. I have rich parents who always put me first and always made me feel loved. I decided to take a gap year before college because I have no goals or ambitions. I cannot recall a single time in my life I have struggled or been slow to pick something up. I am taking the gap year in order to force myself to find things that I am bad at and become more uncomfortable because I hate the fact I have everything. I feel like such an asshole to complain about anything in my life so I would never tell anyone but i genuinely feel empty. I hate myself for having everything because I have earned nothing.