just found out this is a fairly common thing?

was just doing a quick google search on why i feel amazing when i cross my legs and squeeze and found this sub. i genuinely thought i was alone and weird for doing this but i am SO so relieved that this is a pretty common occurrence! i don’t even have to be thinking about anything inherently sexual, it’s just comes to me (no pun intended). it’s always been the most extreme pleasure i can give myself.

my main question is: is there a reason why it’s easier/more pleasurable to do it right after going pee? it’s almost become a habit,, use the restroom, sit down on the couch, cross one leg over the other and almost instant gratification. i’m able to do it without using the bathroom first but it’s so much better right after a good piss?? is there any specific reason for this?

a good secondary question i have is: will i ever be able to finish from penetration? i’ve been with my partner for seven years now and honestly, i’m not sure if i’ve ever actually climaxed from sex with him. i’ve been “faking it” basically every single time and it upsets me quite a bit that i feel as though i will never get the,, enjoyment that i want? from penetrative sex, if that makes sense, because i’ve been doing this self pleasure so often.

any and all advice would be greatly appreciated