Anyone else struggles with feelings

I feel like the more i over analyze things, the more i am unable to feel

I dont know how to explain it, but sometimes i will try to check my feelings and try to think about something about them that makes me happy or just makes me feel excited, and whenever i do, i do “feel” something but i also dont. i feel like it excites me and makes me happy logically and i can “feel” it by a little bit, but then my anxiety scares me because i feel “unworthy” or feeling that? I am TERRIFIED of the idea of losing them but whenever i do feel something it scares me and i feel like the way i feel it is not good enough and “not right” and that im unworthy of feeling like that, and i start questioning what even love is and what am i supposed to feel like.

When i dont overanalyze my feelings i mostly feel comfort and i feel relaxed. But when i do and when i start thinking about why they make me feel so happy i feel so scared for some reason. Like its not real or that im lying to myself

i try not to check my feelings and its been a while ever since i did that, so now when i do it i feel terrified and scared.

I know checking my feelings is not good but sometimes it can make my love more fun or intense.

but when it doesnt work i cant stop stressing out that ive lost my feelings and that i did something wrong because why could i do it before and not now?

Does anyone relate? Honestly i wanna hear if this happens to anyone else.