My life is basically pointless without surgery.

I feel like I am in a limbo state where my life is on pause because my jaw is deformed. I am that worried and self-conscious about it makes me incapable of achieving any goals or progressing in life.

I'm have severe BDD and anxiety that I think that unable to function in society or hold a long-term job. I'm too afraid to even apply for jobs. My jaw makes me feel like I will never amount to anything.

Every day I wish that I would hang myself because I see no reason to continue living.