Self Sabotage….

I drank yesterday. A lot. Close to two pints of Vodka. It’s like I get days al Phil free, and it doesn’t have to be a life stressor that causes the lapse. Was feeling good yesterday, as when to gym for about hour and a half. Cleans the house. The yard etc.

So to reward myself I am like have a drink. So even when I am in a good mood I need to be on top of my sobriety.

I am pissed at myself, as the day after like today I am a hot mess. Panic attacks, self hate and shame.

It sucks but Day 1 is here and fighting for my sobriety! 🧡🧡🧡