What He did and I Still Stayed

Hi everyone, I (30F) recently broke up with my (35M) bf after 2 years of dating and have been struggling alot. One of the things that has helped is listing all the terrible things he has done. It reminds me of who he truely is and not the potential I had in my head. I think as women sometimes we feel embarrassed to admit what really happened. So here are the 43 things I have so far in no particular order:

I really couldnt tell you what was my breaking point. It just became a "what possibly could come next" situation in my head 24/7 and the stress was too much to handle. Oddly I still love him and didnt want to leave him, but I know that sometimes the beat decisions are what we need, not what we want.