Got accepted into an university but I have to let it go.

I got accepted into an university in Japan but the tuition reduction is 30% with ridiculously high fees upfront (around 6000usd and overall 7000usd per year), I can't afford it. I'm extremely sad as it was the only uni that accepted me so far and I have to let it go... I spent so much money and effort to get the resources in order to apply for them in the first place. Inside scholarships nor part-time could help me pay for these expenses either.

I guess I wasn't meant to follow my dreams. I'm in such a bad place right now mentally, it sucks. Can't even cry, I'm just staring at my screen trying to process all these emotions. I have no one to talk to so best I could do is to vent here.