I just wanna cry at this point

Yrr first time aise feel ho rha ki give up kr du sabkuch .kuch bhi sahi nhi chal rha Gate ka prep kr rha hu for cs 27 woh bhi nhi ho paa rha ab na semester exams ka padhne ka Mann kr rha Aur pata nhi kaise sabko pata chal gya mai gate prep kr rha hu and sabne meri puri personality hi ye bana di ki ye banda ye gate prep kr rha h wahi tier 69 college wali mentality Aur jisko bola tha proxy lagane usne bhi proxy nhi lagaya aur mujhe aake bol deta tha ki ban gya attendance Right now mera do subject me less than 50% hai attendance i don't even mai kaise kya krunga kyuki medical bhi 60% pe lagta h Nah end sem ka padhai ho paa rhi nah hi ab gate prepration ka kuch ho paa rha Upar se new year ke baad se ghar bhi nhi gya jabki mere Hometown frnd call krke bula bhi rahe the Mai sare direction se phasa hu yrrrrr kuch samjh nhi aa rha kya ho rha life me itna hopeless kabhi bhi feel nhi kia Sab kuch galat hi ho rha h koi ye sab sunne wala bhi nhi h so yaha aake mai ye sab likh rha hu Please please please god iss baar iss situation se nikal do next time mai sab theek kr dunga Pata nhi ky ky likh rha hu fukkkkkkkkk kyu ho rha yrr ye sab